Why I Stay With Water

So many people ask me almost every day: "How can you speak so badly about drugs now? You did everything, enjoyed it, celebrated yourself, and now suddenly it's all bad. Incomprehensible. Please explain."

So let me take the time. I have to go back a bit, otherwise it makes no sense. This post is only my own opinion, these are my own experiences and I only claim things I have experienced myself, this is my life and it does not serve as a guide. If it inspires, great, if not, I am sorry.

What I want to say: have no expectations of what is written. Thank you.

First of all: what are drugs? I do not need to google that, I say it as I feel it for myself. Drugs are a form of experience that temporarily makes you feel pretty good. Whether I smoke or snort or drink, I can also eat 2 donuts and be totally high on sugar. I can also blast loud music and lose myself and feel like I am on drugs. Drugs in themselves are not something bad for me. If I have an infection, I am glad that someone gives me drugs so the pain heals and the inflammation passes through medication.

Have I consumed a lot of drugs? Oh boy. Why should I make a secret of it? I came to weed at 13, speed at 14, cocaine for the first time at 15 or probably even earlier. Smoking was normal, rolling my own later and relapsing multiple times. I only drank when I did not want to feel anymore. I cannot enjoy alcohol anyway, it just always went along with cocaine. Speed, ketamine, pills and also MDMA were my normal diet, I lived in Berlin, who is surprised now that I was completely on it. 300 days a year.

The girls at the brothel and escorts at home or in hotels came later. Breaks were good but never really lasted. It was only since Covid and especially through my divorce that I understood: I only want water.

And now it is clear that I am on completely different drugs: breathing, sport, clarity, music, dancing, mental satisfaction that needs no external highs. I no longer masturbate, watch no porn and am free from everything, including coffee. Why?

This is simply my way of being high on life. That does not mean it is right. Please do not misunderstand me. I am not relevant to this society at all, it can get along fine without me. That people from all over the world book me today is completely natural, who else minimizes their life to just water and is free from everything? I live almost like a monk, to be completely honest with you.

But who is surprised? I lived 20 years of my life harder, wilder, more hedonistic and more debauched than most people ever will. I experienced those things, so why would I now go to a brothel? And why would I snort lines at an afterparty? And why would I have coffee before the gym when I go to the gym, then get on a call with New York, and then cook for 1.5 hours in my kitchen while looking out at the lake in Zürich?

I am completely fulfilled with the life I live, mentally, emotionally, physically and spiritually. Drugs cannot give me anything anymore. I have filled that inner emptiness with my life. That was 20 years of the hardest and craziest search, and I could have died doing it. What luck, I am still here.

Does that help you better understand why I talk in my videos about not needing any of this? Not really, right? Yes, I understand that, because in our society escape is by far the biggest topic. And drugs are always also a kind of escape into the outside, because one does not want to experience confrontation on the inside. The own truth about oneself hurts, you have to make yourself vulnerable to be able to dive into your self-image, into your own soul and its life.

That is why drugs are so widespread.
Stressed? Have a smoke. Is it good? No.
Annoyed? Give me a beer. Is that healthy? No.
Dissatisfied? Give me my phone, distraction is needed. Is that healthy for the nervous system? No, everyone knows it, but nobody cares until they hit rock bottom.
Horny? The porn must come. Is that self-control? No, but you want to stop soon. New Year, right?

I have left all of this behind. I was a talker, I posted pictures from a broken marriage and acted like I was important. Today I know: the drugs and the escape did not let me feel who I really am.

Today? Sober? I only post videos that help others. Nobody needs to see what I eat. Who I love is nobody else's business. And what battles are fought in my soul, I talk about those with coaches and mentors who are paid for it. Because I do not want to introduce my demons to my friends. That is not the place for it, that is my work, I have to do it inside myself and it has no place on the outside.

That is the difference from before. Today I deliver value for people. Back then I was the entertainer, and was certainly supported by many because I was kind and nice. But I was also lost and not always on the right path. That was especially hard on my parents, and I can only thank them from the bottom of my heart that they did not give up on their love for me. Thank you.

Drugs are not something bad, I do not condemn these substances. I can only tell you that they all ultimately do not lead where you want to go. At least that was the case for me. I basically only postponed the best version of myself by consuming.

And now come the readers and haters and critics who say: "You do not always have to exaggerate, you could have just had a drink now and then and smoked a bit here and snorted something there."

Sure. And who does that? Have you ever looked closely and seen that most consumers have no control at all and are only lying to themselves? Since I went viral almost 2 years ago and now have brutally high interaction with my community at 2.3 million views a month, I see a few truths that consumers like to push away.

a) Every consumption is a kind of escape into calm, but this calm only lasts briefly. The chaos is not cleared up by it.

b) Every consumption comes with consequences, and you have to take responsibility for these damages.

c) Without consumption life is boring, and many people cannot stand boredom.

Point c) is definitely something I have become good at. I am becoming a master at it, and that is not meant arrogantly, but as a training I have been doing since 2011.

Enduring boredom is by far the biggest hurdle for everyone who wants to become sober. The distractions, cravings and stimuli wait around every corner, and most people are not willing to resist. That applies to talking, listening, eating, drinking, boozing, fucking and presenting yourself as an expert even when you have no idea. And I say that as someone who was that guy who always thought he knew everything and should have a say in everything. That is exhausting for yourself and also for those around you.

Learning humility is part of getting sober. Being modest as well, and keeping your mouth shut for once is clearly a primary part of sobriety. Because in the end what counts is whether you go to the gym, are a good partner and fulfill your daily tasks.

You do not need to report about it and even less do you need to congratulate yourself on it, because you are not relevant. I myself took myself far too seriously. And drugs are clearly an amplifier of feelings, which is why in the consumption world you focus far too much on yourself.

In doing so you forget strongly and often and for long periods that it is not about yourself at all. It is about serving, about delivering value, and about becoming a role model as a good person so that the world becomes a little better every day.

But when you are not clear with yourself, live impurely and poison yourself, whether 3 times a week or once a month, that is ultimately impure. That is how I see it today. That is exactly why I ended everything and now only live with water.

I have never been more fulfilled in life than now. And whoever thinks that I always had a great life and good energy, I say to them today: I am today, sober and clean, 4000 times stronger, better and healthier on all levels. I am by far the best version of myself, and I only did one thing for that:

I think better, I feel clearer, I sense more finely, I speak more beautifully, I move through life better, laugh more beautifully, feel lighter, have fewer worries, solve problems faster and more easily and no longer let myself be disturbed.

I respond more consciously, listen better and conduct relationships on a level that is healthy and sustainable. My connections with people reflect this clarity, and also my moral and ethical values. I live in a wonderful place, integrate into the community and receive recognition from all over the world.

How stupid would I be to start doing drugs again, I would destroy all the work of the last 5 years with that. For what?

For cigarette smoke in my lungs?
For a fuck at the brothel?
For porn drunk in bed with olive oil?
Smoke in my lungs and weed high in my blood?
Coke in my blood to feel like God and talk nonsense?
To be drunk and feel the lightness?

That is all pointless, and that is just my opinion. I do not share this to tell others what is right. I share it because since the age of 11 I have shared my life on Radio 7.

I share because I know there are people in similar situations, they want to grow and learn from someone who has walked this path.

I share because I want to experience it once more for myself. To see my own story on paper, to smile at it, to feel that I really walked this path. It is my path. While doing so I listen to music and see myself cycling around the world, see myself at the altar getting married and believing in great love, see myself at the lawyer getting divorced, snorting cocaine at the brothel and dancing in the club. I have always enjoyed life so much that I completely overlooked the fact that life needs much less than I always took for myself.

Life does not have to be loud, on the contrary. It unfolds in silence.

Life does not have to be adventurous, on the contrary, it is allowed to be boring and fill you deeply.

Life is so complex because I made it complex. And yet I had to go through all the highs and lows to understand, for myself, inside, that my life simply had to run this way.

And having arrived at the insights I carry in me today, I sincerely promise myself: I only want to drink water and dance and listen to music and walk around in a Speedo and go for walks.

Are drugs therefore bad? No. Take them. Blow your nose full, but do not forget that cocaine kills children who are raped in Colombia, and that you are blowing kerosene through your nasal passages. And the weed you smoke destroys your brain, I am not talking about smoking once a month, I am talking about the joints you pull through your face every single day.

So do not misunderstand me, I am not better than you. I am also not further along or more experienced or wiser. I have simply reached a point for myself where I reduce the enjoyment of life to renunciation. Less is more for me. Strength lies in calm. It is sexy for me to be in this clarity.

After everything I have experienced, I think, I feel, I sense, that one's own reality is by far the greatest drug. And the best high I have in life, that is my clarity.

That drugs are bad, I never claim that in my videos. I simply tell my life and want to give others something through it, a piece of my love, my warmth, my experiences that perhaps help to master this journey of life yourself.

Whether I have mastered it, I do not know myself. I only know that it feels really good to press post here, then brush my teeth, wash my face once more beautifully, stroke myself and know that tomorrow I have 3 calls again in which people say they are growing, and I am truly helping them become better people.

Would you, with such a magnificent feeling, start using, hooking, smoking and drinking again? Would you, with such an incredible life, run back to the brothel or wave your dick while strangers fuck on your screen?

I do not think so. So now you understand why I stay with water.

With that, a sip of water to this post and much love from Zürich.
Alexandros Tsachouridis

PS: Here is the Instagram video for this article, feel free to let your feelings run free there, pour your heart out, voice your criticism or ask me anything. I am happy to be there for you and I am glad you took the precious time to read this letter to life and from my life. From the heart, thank you. Clear greetings, Alexandros